2014

2013 has been the year i have fallen the most, cried like hell yet the tears do not want to stop, faced endless problems and finally I realised that i had to wake up from my fairytales because there is a reason why they have an ending too. However, I still believe 2013 was one of the most interesting year of my life because it made me find myself back each time. I discovered that if some people can break your trust a thousand times and be toxic to you, there is always others who will help you and be there for you. Whether it is family or friendship, there are people will always love you unconditionally after you did so much mistakes and hurt them unwillingly.

This year, no matter how stormy it was, made me more courageous and stronger each time to assume my mistakes and faced them all. Running away by just disappearing like a foam is what we all dream of because facing them is often what seems impossible. The path to being strong and courageous is indeed very difficult and we feel lonelier each single day with no more hope of believing that things will get better. However, things can be a little better if we stop focusing on the pain and enjoy the little things we always had with the people who will always love us.

I may have realised it late but i learned how to appreciate my family struggling everyday to make me happy and comfortable with my life and studies. My mum who is always strong just to protect us from the bad of this world. My friends who no matter how bad the situation is make there best just to see me smile and for all of us to spend precious moments we won't ever get back. My siblings with whom i may not talk for months but who are always there when we need the best advice.

When i think about how long and difficult this year was i smile now because i know that without the pain and tears i would not have been that strong. I am also happy that i was able to found myself back. For long during this year, i was changing in a very negative way and i was stopping to believe in my dreams. Nevertheless, by finding myself back i realised that being positive i all i need to be and my dreams is what makes me so special and differentiate me from others.

People are always going to leave because we will need space to welcome new ones. Life is suppose to be difficult if its not it means we are not living it well. Our attitude to face the different situations of life is what makes us stronger or not. Mistakes are meant to happen otherwise we will never learn. Acknowledging, assuming and facing them is the real struggle, and it is different for everyone. No one can help us if we do not want to help us.

I am grateful 2013 made me realised all this and i am happy that i experienced all this too because it helped me realised little things i would have never realised otherwise. 2014 is going to be a new year with even more challenges to face. Serious decisions will have to be taken. Therefore, i pray for it to help me muster lots of courage to face them all. I also wish that 2014 ends with my smile still being my biggest strength.